Book Log: Hannibal

May. 23rd, 2025 03:43 pm
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My first time reading about Hannibal of Carthage! Ernle Bradford's Hannibal is a decent intro and well-written, though after reading stuff by Mary Beard and others, it makes the lack of visible scholarship within Bradford's book stand out a bit. He does occasionally mention when Livy and Polybius' takes of Hannibal contradict each other, and does do some speculation on which route Hannibal and his brother may have taken into Italy, but otherwise it mostly presents things to be fact, right down to quotes that Hannibal was reported to have said. (By whom!) Which makes it good for an intro reader like me, but doesn't get into the nitty gritty or discuss other causes and effects of Hannibal's campaign except the overarching consequence that in the aftermath, Rome's influence in the Mediterranean increased and grew out into an empire.

Something like 80% of the book's content covers Hannibal's decade-and-half campaign in Italy, with particular focus on war tactics. It's generalizing to say that male historians enjoy focusing a great deal on the minutiae of war tactics in the biographies they write, yet that is a mild pattern I'm seeing. I would like to know more about the Hannibal's world and the political machinations of Rome in resisting and eventually repelling him. Because Bradford does present the opinion that Hannibal's wartime strategy in Italy was sound for invasion but not for consolidation, and it's the strength of Rome's political institutions that allowed them to resist Hannibal for over a decade of warfare without capitulation or destruction, but those processes are what I would liked to know more about. I would also love to know more about how fear of Hannibal impacted Roman society! But that's a minor thing, and not necessary for an intro read of the topic.

On a very basic note, the times being what they are, whenever Hannibal's father gets mentioned I have to forcibly read Hamilcar as a name instead of a Pixar AU of Hamilton.

Tired

May. 22nd, 2025 07:48 pm
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Almost 8 pm in the roofers next door are still hard at work. I'm really tempted to go over there and ask them when they are going to finish so that I can go to bed and to tell them that I haven't been able to sleep all day long because of their assholery.

Looking for housemates in Minnesota

May. 22nd, 2025 02:32 am
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I've been living at my childhood home, a hobby farm in Minnesota, taking care of my dad. Soon my dad will be moving to assisted living, along with my mom who is moving there from the nursing home.

I'll be staying at the farm and looking after the animals. I'd rather live here with other people, as it's safer and more fun. I have multiple disabilities which make managing a whole farm rather difficult on my own. I've had a couple of seizures which make it safer for me to have people around me. Minnesota is one of the better places to live right now in the US and this could be a good opportunity for someone to live here.

So, if you know of anyone that would like a nice place to live, please direct them my way, especially queer and trans people looking for a relatively safe place. There is a lot of space in the house (3 full bathrooms, 4 bedrooms), and plenty of outdoor space.

I have one cat and one dog in the house, and outside there are a few sheep, one aging horse that is strictly a pasture pet, and some guinea fowl. Amenities include a dishwasher, laundry, wifi, some streaming services, 2 gas fireplaces. This is a wonderful place for hobbies such as gardening, woodworking, fiber arts, baking, etc. In addition to the house there are some outbuildings and a nice garden shed. Opportunities for fishing, golf, biking abound in the region.

Couples (+) are welcome as are kids. There is a good elementary school just a few miles away.

The house needs a bit of work, but overall it's very nice and peaceful. One thing I do contend with here is bugs. There is no central AC but we can do window AC units when needed. Sometimes the dog barks in an annoying manner (we are working on it). I could use help with mowing, weeding, cutting brush.

You could live here for cheap as I mostly am looking for company and help. I can't live with smokers due to my disabilities. I have lived with roommates for most of my life and can provide references.

The house is rural but only a few miles from the nearest shopping area, and close to a small city. You would probably need to have a car, though we can get grocery delivery here.

My interests include watching TV shows and movies, gardening, science fiction, jigsaw puzzles, thrifting. I'm a queer woman in my 40s. I'm a rather extreme night owl.

If interested you can comment here or email me, sandphin at gmail dot com. Share this link with people you think might be interested!

Outer Wilds

May. 21st, 2025 11:28 am
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I've watched (or "watched") so many Outer Wilds playthroughs I figured I'd try to remember the ones I liked in case I want to find them again. I've already been unable to find some that are not in my watch history for whatever bizarre reason. I'll probably be editing this post as I re-find the players I remember.

Oliver @ About Oliver (main game supercut & echoes supercut)
An astrophysicist plays Outer Wilds! An easygoing player who enjoys and discusses the science and space details of the game, with little anecdotes on what's accurate to real life and what's not. He notices the time differential when warping and talks about macroscopic quantum behaviour before the game mentions both, and gets excited when the game validates his theorising.

Liera (main game supercut and echoes supercut)
Liera is a very pleasant player, easygoing and cheerful, and thoughtful as she talks out her understanding of the lore. Interestingly, she's thorough but not traditionally methodical, which means that she sometimes finds secrets in the wrong order, which is fascinating (eg. she finds the probe tracking module before ever exploring the remains of the orbital probe cannon, and she finds ALL the burned slide reel rooms before finding the guide in the tower). In playing the main game she develops the Nomai timeline correctly through her notetaking.

Adam @ King Adam XVII
Adam is a fun player, he's not particularly focused but comes into the game with appreciation and commentary on the music (trends, influences, etc. plus he points out that the Prisoner's theme at the end uses a suspension). He sometimes pauses the game to play the music on his own instruments, or perform his Outer Wilds-inspired work, and he loves messing around with the mechanics of the game and seeing what he can do with its physics.

Becca @ BeccaBytes (main game supercut and echoes supercut)
Becca is a cheerful player who has nice reactions and figures out the emotional weight of the game, I think she's the one who calls the anglerfish cave the "place of sadness". She's not a very efficient player and misses some elements of the main game that she fills in with the dlc, but she does figure out some things other players don't (like the Stranger's movement), she gets a very good closeup of an owlk when the dam breaks, and she gets so frustrated with the sneaking that she makes a word doc plan that leads her to solving all three dream locations by entering from different points.

Ryan @ lil indigestion (main game supercut)
I've got this on right now, he's a cheerful, meticulous player who takes his time to look at things and pontificate appreciation for the lore, so he sees a lot of detail (he figures out Solanum grew up in the system before he even recognizes her as the Quantum Moon pilgrim) but also wanders a lot and struggles with the time-sensitive and platforming sections.

Allie @ AllieCat (main game supercut and echoes supercut)
Player with good energy and engagement in the Hearthian and Nomaian lore, and she loves Solanum! Her talking through the story is fun to listen to, though she wasn't as engaged with the Echoes DLC.

Mapocolops (main game supercut and echoes supercut)
Good energy dude, I can't remember other details.

Lukael @ Lukael Plays
I can't remember specific details but I do remember that this player was very pleasant to listen to.

Cohh @ CohhCarnage (main game supercut and echoes supercut)
Another one I can't remember details but that he had good energy and I liked listening to him. I just rewatched a bit and he stumbles into the Ash Twin completely by accident and way too early!
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This person points out that there's a bunch of spells in D&D that take away someone's free will, and most people are perfectly fine with it, but if those spells were real, they'd be horrifying. Which is something I've thought about before, in other contexts.

In my Ravenstone series, any act of magic that takes away someone's free will is considered a very serious crime, regardless of what you do with it. It's not illegal to be able to do most of these spells, since it is possible to cast them on animals and sometimes you have know how to cast the bad spells in order to protect yourself and others from them. But casting them on another human being or on most other sapient races (like the various faeries in the world) is a serious crime. There are some exceptions... government officials can sometimes legally cast compulsion spells on people to get them to calm down and cooperate if nothing else works (which doesn't happen often, as there are simple knockout spells and the like).

And if a young mage has a Gift for one of these kinds of magics -- meaning they can do the magic as a natural talent rather than having learned it -- they get some legal leeway, given that they can almost never control it at that age. Also there are sometimes good arguments to be made for self-defense, and it really depends on the spell and the mage's proficiency with it. Vedya Ravenstone has a Gift called Fear Projection, which causes another person to experience their worst fears; she gets in a bit of legal trouble using it a couple times growing up, but doesn't go to jail because she's so young and can't control it.

The way I came at this realization was the cavalier attitude mages and the author herself had in the Harry Potter series towards love potions. They were seen as this mostly harmless thing, the school even taught how to brew them, and I feel like this should've been a huge sign that Rowling is a fake feminist because using love potion on someone is basically rape. And yeah, Voldemort was conceived under a love potion, but even then it was downplayed by the characters and the narrative. She could've gone the route that he became evil because his mother had committed an act of evil in enchanting Voldy's father, but she instead focused on the fact that Voldemort's birth had basically been to try to anchor his father to his mother after she stopped dosing him with the love potion, and Dumbledore says that he went evil because he had never been loved. Which is a very problematic take on its own, that Bitchula could have countered by having pointed out that Harry couldn't possibly have known he was loved given the age he was when he was orphaned and how his remaining family treated him. Instead she did some nonsense with his mother's love protecting him from the killing curse and from becoming evil when he was hated by his caretakers, which is also stupid because if that was possible, why was Harry the first to survive the killing curse? Honestly, that whole series is a mess of nonsense and contradictions.

Anyway yeah, love potion comes up a couple times in the Ravenstone series, mentioned as an extremely restricted substance you need special permission from the government to even research, and pretty illegal to use on another person, in fact it's called out in the series by the characters and the narrative itself as being sexual assault just to use it on someone at all, regardless of your claimed intentions. I even have a little aside in one of the books where some member of one of the sports teams got expelled and went to prison for dosing someone with a love potion.

Music at the movies

May. 18th, 2025 10:23 am
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This week’s theme in film was ‘music’.

On Monday I went to a screening of the 1925 Phantom of the Opera, with a live band who had composed a score especially for the occasion (see the Film Society website). This was really cool! I haven’t seen much in the way of silent film, and it’s interesting to compare it to modern film stylistically. And it’s neat with the live band. There were some moments of humour that were created entirely musically. They had a vocal element representing the female singers, but then for the Phantom they had I think a sort of flute for the same effect, and that was really effective.

I guess today we are used to films where everyone is expected to have the same experience, compared with theatre where every performance is different (we won’t consider filmed theatre), so it’s neat to have an experience outside of that paradigm. I was glad I went just for that.

Then on Tuesday I went to Sinners (made 100 years later!), which I really enjoyed. And which made me cry! I probably wouldn’t have gone based on the one trailer I saw, but my trainer (who is also a film nerd) liked it so much he went twice, so I thought I would.

Idk, I enjoyed the joy in it, even contrasted with horror – the way that Sammy says as an old man that up to the horror part, it was still the best day in his life. (And also that he did go on to live a good long life, chasing music and not doing what his father wanted!)

I’ve probably said this before, but I feel like the older I get the more I appreciate films that don’t stick to pure realism. That climactic musical scene is really awesome. And speaks to the transcendence of music, live music in particular which isn’t really reproducible just from the simple recording of it.

Although saying that, I went to a screening of an ATEEZ concert recording yesterday, and I’m not sure that isn’t actually a better experience than the large-scale kpop concerts I’ve been to … (I just think stadiums are a bad venue for anything involving dance performance, ok!) Anyway, the screening was fun! My friend described the concert as ‘one for the whump fans’ lol. Those interstitial bits with the members getting captured certainly were something …
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I got this Star Wars short story collection eight years ago! But delayed reading it I think because I was put off by one of the stories in The Legend of Luke Skywalker that I found weirdly mean-spirited and feared more of the same. But now I'm determined to clear my to-read shelf, and have also just finished watching Andor season 2 followed by a rewatch of Rogue One and Star Wars, so I am having those SW feelings right now. I just double-checked that the collection was published after Rogue One came out but before The Rise of Skywalker, so it has certain elements pretty fresh in the telling.

As a collection of short content from various authors, the majority being short prose fiction, that follows points of view of characters that aren't central to the plot of Star Wars, it is a mixed bag of:
(1) meandering retellings of SW events,
(2) less meandering retellings of SW events yet still do not add much to my understanding or appreciation of the SW universe,
(3) retellings of SW events that imply a greater hand of destiny/the Force in getting certain events to happen the way they do, as if coincidences cannot just be coincidence, and minor characters cannot just be minor characters whose lives happen to intersect with the heroes but instead whose very purpose of existence is to enable destiny to happen, which makes the world smaller and less interesting to me,
(4) stories that think they're gosh darn clever by being meta;
(5) actually interesting stories (to me!) that spin-off from SW events.

I did really like some! The Kloo Horn Cantina Caper by Kelly Sue DeConnick and Matt Fraction is a fun crime caper style evening in the Mos Eisley port, the Mon Mothma story by Alexander Freed especially hit well after watching Andor, and Stories in the Sand (about a curious Jawa) by Griffin McElroy is one of those outsider POV styles I like. There's a couple of others, but these particular stood out to me.

Also, shoutout to Of MSE-6 and Men by Glen Weldon, which I think might be Ground Zero of the Wilhuff-Tarkin-had-a-gay-affair-with-a-stormtrooper bit of canon that I've seen mentioned here and there? I had no idea, and double-taked when it got to that bit!
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(“There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable.
There is another theory which states that this has already happened.”
― Douglas Adams, The Restaurant at the End of the Universe )

My comment on the video:

Here's a fun thought: what if the universe loops back around on itself in a non-euclidean way? Years ago in my first Ravenstone book, I came up with something called a "hollow hill" which is basically, in this storyverse, a pocket universe made with magic, accessible through a door and held in place by anchoring it to the universe you're already in. If you don't anchor it correctly, you can walk into it through the door, walk to the other side of the pocket universe in a straight line, and find yourself walking out the door you came in at, without having changed direction. So... what if the universe does the same thing? What if, when you get far enough out to the opposite end of the universe, you end up seeing your own local galaxy neighborhood, or a reflection of it? Like, if you could take an FTL ship out there and keep going straight, would you end up back where you started from without changing direction?

Or wilder yet: maybe there are other universes, some older or younger than ours, and the walls between universes are transparent, allowing us to see into other universes?

Or maybe the universe is cyclical, expanding and contracting and expanding again like breathing, and Webb is seeing light from the cycle prior to this one?

Wow

May. 13th, 2025 11:34 pm
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The rain sort of sucked away my ability and desire to be awake for Sunday and Monday, so I spent Sunday oversleeping and Monday getting back to my version of normal. It being cold and rainy those days didn't help; I'd have gone outside for a walk on Monday at least if it hadn't been raining.

Today was cold but not rainy, at least where I was. Despite my being displeased by the cold and despite not having a lot of hope for many returnables because of the weather probably keeping people indoors, I went out and did a can box run anyway. I went my normal route up 17th, around the area by 17th and Tacoma, up Tacoma to 13th, along 13th, then turned right and went to Milwaukie, turned left, and scoured the usual parts of Milwaukie. From there I would usually take a bus back home or walk back along 17th or something, but today (Tuesday, as I'm posting this close to the wire) I walked back down to Bybee, walked along Bybee to the MAX stop, and checked trash cans at the MAX stop. Took the MAX to the stop closest to my place, wandered around the McLaughlin/Ochoco industrial area a bit, then headed back home.

Only just a few minutes got around to washing out and counting the cans and bottles from today's haul, which was surprisingly hefty: 23 returnables! That is, of course, $2.30. The current bag, which will be the third of three this month, is now entirely full. Time to move on to bag four!

Beware the inter-dimensional Costco.

May. 11th, 2025 01:43 pm
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I had a dream last night that there was a sapient, predatory, inter-dimensional Costco using fake Kirkland brand products like a lure to catch unsuspecting people like an angler fish catching its prey. Like, alongside the regular Kirkland products there'd be "Kiirkland" or "Kirklond" branded products hiding among the real products, and if you touched one, you'd get sucked into another dimension into a backrooms-looking Costco and you'd die there because the products aren't real, and then the inter-dimensional Costco would digest you, and now I'm wondering how to make this into an SCP Foundation wiki entry.

Born Yesterday (1950)

May. 11th, 2025 09:17 am
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I was watching Be Kind Rewind's video essay about the Best Actress Oscar Race of 1950, and the clips she put in of Born Yesterday were so compelling I ended up looking for an online stream to watch the whole movie. I found one! And oh my goodness Judy Holliday is SUCH a delight, what an amazing comedic performance and her delivery is SO good. So good!


Paul: "(I can help) answer any questions."
Billie: "I got no questions."
Paul: "Well, I'll give you some."
Billie: "Thanks?"

The movie itself requires the usual disclaimers for its time, since it's about Judy's character, Billie Dawn, being instructed by her gangster-ish boyfriend to get an "education" so she won't embarrass him in front of his political targets in Washington DC, and Billie has her mind opened to learning by the journalist man said boyfriend has hired to teach her. But it's so kind and empathetic towards Billie, and central to the movie is how education empowers people, and that Billie always had that potential despite no one ever seeing it in her or giving her a real chance.

After watching the movie I went back to finish the video essay, which continues into Judy Holliday's struggle to not be typecast as a dumb blonde following the success of the movie. That gave me pause because it's been so long since I've been conscious of the dumb blonde stereotype, which I would guess is still around in RL communities that have many blondes (i.e. not my own) but have since fallen out of favour in the fiction I consume. I hadn't even noticed that trend, though I had noticed recently that a lot of the live-action media I've watched don't have that many blonde women characters, period.

THIRTY!

May. 10th, 2025 05:14 pm
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Tried going to the farmer's market today, went south instead of north because I got the two closest to me mixed up. I should have gone north to go to the one today. Because it would've been too late to get to that one once I made my mistake, I went to WinCo instead to get a few things: Better Than Boullion (beef flavor and chicken flavor both), a little cereal to finish off my milk from the food boxes, and some jasmine tea.1 After that, went home. Scored a few returnables on that trip. (Was wearing my yellow sundress and pink sandals.)

Once I got home, I put things away, changed shoes to my hiking shoes, and headed off towards the library to drop some things off. Took the other full returnables bag with me and dropped it off at New Seasons Market. Because they take a while to get around to processing the bags, its sibling was still in there, with only a few other bags returned there over the last two days. Dropped it off and carried on.

Stopped at can boxes on the way to New Seasons Market of course, then after dropping the full one off, I took a detour toward the Sellwood bridge to grab a can I'd seen yesterday but hadn't had the time to grab before the bus got to the stop. It was still there, so I put it in my cart and went back to 13th, where I did my usual routine of checking can boxes along the way to the library. Checked at the pagan store along the way and spotted my book's ad sign in their window. :-)

Got to the library, dropped a DVD and a book off, used the bathroom, got a drink of water from the fountain, and left. Kept going along 13th to check can boxes. Instead of going up and along the curve to the area by the bank as usual, I turned right and went down a residential street until Milwaukie Avenue, then turned left. Found a returnable on the ground near there, picked it up, went up Milwaukie past QFC a ways and then stopped at a bus stop, tired, and waited the two minutes til the bus and took it home.

The can boxes were especially generous today, with many of them having five or more things in them, and my final count at the end of the day, between the can boxes and the ones I got on the WinCo trip combined, was THIRTY returnables! My third green bag of cans and bottles is almost full now! Thirty returnables is of course three dollars in Oregon.

I do not have mileage to report, as I didn't have GaiaApp running and was not wearing my smartwatch. But I'm guessing it to be at least four miles, given what previous trips have been, between the two trips.

I will be going south tomorrow to the farmers market that I mistakenly tried going to today. After that, not sure. But yeah, only the tenth and already scored two and a half bags of returnables. Yes, at least half a bag of that was my own purchased drinks, but oh well.


1 = What I really wanted was some loose leaf jasmine tea from Hong Phat, but I didn't feel up to going to Hong Phat for just one thing, and whenever I do go to Hong Phat or other Asian markets, I tend to get more things than I need. There was one time a few months ago that I went there to just get a few things, and I ended up spending more than $100!

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May. 11th, 2025 12:13 am
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In job news, welp, I have a signed contract! I shall soon be unemployed no more!

job drama of the good kind, but still drama )

*

Anyway, on to less stressful subjects, I've been trying to fill my days with nice things, before I start at the new place.

Last weekend [personal profile] roga and I got up at 3:30am and drove up north during the night, to see the sunrise from a monastery on a mountain. Then we went to a museum, met a local friend, saw a Roman relic.

This weekend we went to a different museum, then to a small local market, then to a very nice seafood restaurant, then we just sat around on the grass overlooking the sea, before heading to my place and watching hours of a TV show.

I am so grateful for this time and these experiences. I feel like beginning work again after over a year of having a different schedule is going to really mess me up at least for a few months, so it's nice that the weather right now is really good and I have friends to take advantage of that with.
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I was looking at my AO3 works list and there were ZERO explicit fics on the first page, so I figured I'd better do something about it.

Fandom: Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairing/Characters: Steve/Tony
Genre: Iron Man 2-canon divergence, first time, PWP, bottom!Tony, top!Steve, Tony POV
Rating: Explicit
Words: 5000+
Crossposting: AO3
A/N 1: This is a prequel of my front row seats series, of the first time Steve and Tony slept together.
A/N 2: At the risk of overexplaining, the title is a lyric from Breakwater's "Release the Beast", which was sampled in Daft Punk's "Robot Rock", which was used in the party scene of Iron Man 2.

Summary: On the night of his birthday party, Tony makes a move on Steve, expecting that Steve will be scared off and run away. Tony is not at all prepared for Steve to reciprocate.

Time is Right (for You Tonight) )

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